Half Naked

2010-06-27T20:32:00.001+08:00

People, I've shifted. This is now dead to me. (:
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Long Time.

2010-02-19T17:57:00.000+08:00

Okay, been pretty caught up with things lately. I have yet to start on my project. Not really a project, more like a favour to my cousin. I hope it does go well. I mean, I need to wait for them to send me the necessary things before I can begin. Till then, I'm nervous I'd screw the 'project' up.

Be biting my nails till then. (;

Results & Plenty Emotions!

2010-01-06T23:28:00.004+08:00

Rumour has it, the results will be out between the 11th to 13th Jan. Not sure how far it is true, but at least I would be ready. Or I hope to be ready. Shucks. I am burying myself in novels to block out any unwanted nerves. Up to now, the year has been smooth. My guess is probably cause I am no longer in school, a huge relieve. I have suffered my fair share of school burden to last me a lifetime. Reality is harsh, once you step outside of the comfort zone.

I think I am very worked up right now. I have no clue why, but what to do. Oh wait, I do know the reason. PMS. (; I am PMS-ing. Darnit! I think I need to crawl under a rock and stay there till.. forever! Fk! I hate this whole PMS thing. It's making me depressive. Actually, more like manic depressive state of irritation and frustration. Oh shit, the emotions are too overwhelming. I don't know what to do. Seriously, delirious! I should prolly go off so that I can cool myself down before going to bed.

The Worst Comes First.

2009-12-09T22:11:00.003+08:00

Monday's outing with A (guy) was a disappointment. I DO NOT EVER WANT TO GO OUT with A again! So, this afternoon, I went out with E & K! I had such a great time. I mean, it was so much more better than A. On Monday, we went to Vivocity. I don't like that place at all. A forced me to go there. Ass, right? I mean, he is a guy for crying out loud. A forced me to watch a movie that I did not intend to watch. Made me arrive home late, made me pay for a damn movie that I had no intention to watch. What an ASS! Seriously. The next day, I found out that A lied to me. YES, A did lie to me! A does not know that I know that A lied to me. Makes sense? I know, sorry about the whole initial thingy. I like it like that. (:

This afternoon's outing was so cool. It was so much more better than I thought it was going to be. Even though we met up pretty late, 3 pm, we were so relaxed. Like everything was so normal. It definitely was better than Monday. I mean, everything is normal, I guess. Some things are just left unsaid. Nah, seriously, I enjoyed myself. Should go out with them more often. However, I shall reconsider going out anymore because I am tight on cash. Extremely tight. I still have 2 more outings. Wait, make that 3. With the little money I have left, I am going to be very, very frugal with it. Scary as it may sound, I will survive. More like, I HAVE TO. Until the eve of Christmas. I left some money aside, cause I do not want to spend it all, you know what I mean? As it is, I regret purchasing some of the things I purchased. As you can see, I am not the 'save-for-the-rainy-day' type of person. It is highly depressing. Going to have to ask for reimbursements. (;

This Friday evening, manicure/pedicure with Y. Excited!

Errands

2009-12-03T18:25:00.003+08:00

I have been busy all week with running trivial errands for myself and for people at home. So little time for myself, really. I try to make time to read. I am somehow just no longer interested in books any longer. It is highly depriving, cause I love reading. Furthermore, I have been going out with my friends like almost everyday, like 4 times per week. Trouble is looming though, cause I am tight on cash. (; I will get by, I guess. Only time will tell how much I will actually save & spend. I am a survivor (;

Going to be short one, cause I am worn out. (:

The Low Down.

2009-11-29T20:10:00.004+08:00

I have watched New Moon in the cinemas already. It's so much more better than Twilight. Plus, the duration of New Moon is longer too. Even though the final scene was a major cliff-hanger. If you read the book, you'd understand why they left the last scene as that. Anyway, I watched it with my close cousin & my sisters. Oh, man. I just love New Moon so much. I thought I was going to dislike it because Jacob (aka Taylor Lautner) would be in 3/4 of the scene, surprisingly, I didn't mind Jacob being in the scenes. I mean, the werewolf guys were pretty good- looking. Hot! I am still a Team Edward (the book version of Edward, not the movie). We bought the tickets damn early, like 3 hours early cause we could not book online nor call (no credit card). That plus the fact that we were so scared that the tickets would be sold out early. Hence, the early departure from home & the early arrival of us. We walked around Orchard Road, cause 2 hours is a lot of time to kill. To end of this paragraph, New Moon is a must watch. No matter if you have read the book or not. However, reading the book, will allow you to understand the character more.

I joined LM & the sister + nephew this afternoon. The reasons: (1) She asked me to join her. (2) I did not have anything planned for the day. (3) She was nearby my place. It was fun. Her nephews are so cute & her sister is so nice. Diplomatic description, but it is true. Honestly. Itinerary for the next day is, go out to Orchard Road with my uncle & aunt. This is going to be a busy week, cause of the week's outing, running errands (my iPhone is giving me trouble - again), plus a whole lotta things that I cannot recall at the moment. Busy, busy week. As busy as a bee, or was it as busy as an ant? Oh well. I need to get loads of things at bargained prices too. I am being thrifty, all right!

Hey, did I tell you that GRAD NIGHT was the BOMB. I tell you, even though it is cliche to the core, I enjoyed myself a lot. I mean, the dressing up and the companions I have. It is just an icing of my whole 5 years in the school. Even though I hate school so much, I enjoyed myself a lot. There was actually so many things that I did not like on the day itself (my tablemates, my lucky streak was at an all-time low & so much more), but I was really looking on the bright side of life. Literally. It was held at a HOTEL, for the first time in many, many years! Goodbye school hall & HELLO HOTELS. (; So, FRIGGIN' AWESOME! (:

Truths Surfaced, Secrets Revealed

2009-11-18T20:12:00.002+08:00

Late last night, my cousins & I sat at the dining table and started talking & talking about anything that came to mind. Everything about past, present & future came up. We laughed, we laughed & we laughed. It was nice to know that I am still close to my cousins even up till now. Weird how my family dynamic works. Oh well.

Right now though, the feeling is bittersweet. Seriously, bittersweet. There isn't anything that can be done to overcome this feeling. Sad, but true.

Grad Night (aka Prom) is coming. 2 more days to go. Scary stuffs, scary stuffs. No one will be helping me get ready for it, I think. Might as well just go, I mean, I already paid the full price for it. So expensive. Anyway, the problem is the transportation & the getting there. Troublesome & cumbersome, I tell you.

Thanksgiving.

2009-11-15T19:32:00.003+08:00

I hope my parents will be having a huge send off. This weekend has been quite quick for me, but since I have nothing to worry about other than my results next year, I think it was rather good. My family held some form a thanksgiving for my parents before they go off & do their duty. My cousins from KL have come here to send my beloved parents off too. I think, no matter how they raise me up & all that stuff that parents do, I will still love them dearly. I mean, they are my parents for heaven's sake. Plus they have raised me up in a weird way. Which is good, right? Oh well, everyone is starting their own family soon. Which means, my sisters and I are left. Does that even make sense? (:

Bottled Anger.

2009-11-12T21:30:00.003+08:00

I changed my blogskin, again. The previous one was just temporary. I couldn't have left my blog without a skin, now can I?

Anyway, my dad didn't allow me to go exercising with K. I was pissed, it is an understatement. If he is going to be like that towards be, then fine, I will wait till he goes away to do what I want to do. Without his permission & knowing. Beat that, Dad! Whenever I ask him for permission, he says no. Then, how the hell am I supposed to do anything if everything he will do is turn me down? How can he expect me to tell him anything? Why do I even bother asking for permission when this is what I get? I feel like I have been rejected more times from my dad than anyone combined. Honestly. I would have understood him if he won't allow me to go during the year. But, COME ON! My examinations are over for crying out loud. What irritates me more is that he doesn't give reasons for not allowing me to go out. I don't care if he is the 'Man of the house'. Seriously, I need freedom, space. It's like, "GOD, forbid she go out!" My maid thinks that my dad does this cause he is afraid I have a boyfriend. Lame excuse. Why can't he just snap out of the fact that keeping me 'locked' up is doing more damage than good. My mum isn't better off too. Sheesh. I sometimes wonder if this is what their parents did to them. However, with the stories that I hear, I doubt so.

I want to buy something. I am keeping my fingers crossed that my mum would allow me to buy the stuff that I want. Wishing, hoping, praying.

I feel like an ugly duckling, really, I do.

For the reocrd, I DO NOT have a boyfriend (even though sometimes I wish I do).
I think boyfriends at this age is a waste of precious time for me. Immature, basically.

Everything in Between

2009-11-11T21:07:00.006+08:00

Oh yeah, finally the wait is over. I am now as free as a bird. As free as I ever was, really. Looking forward, though very, very afraid of my results. It's due early January next year. (: I sat for my last paper this afternoon, Science (Physics/Chem) paper 1. As much as I was elated that it was my last paper, I felt a wee bit nauseous. I mean, cause it was MCQ & there were so many options that are closely related that you kinda have to pick the exact right answer. In other words, paper 1 was a tough nut, tricky too.

Anyway, I got the consent form for Grad Night (aka Prom). Copthorne King Hotel, 4 Havelock Road. Yeah well, go figure. Question is, "Does anyone actually know how to get there?" Cause as far as I know, it's close to Zouk (useless information from my favourite Social Studies teacher) Actually, she's the only Social Studies teacher that has ever taught me, so yeah. Closest MRT station (from the gossip I overhear) is City Hall? Huh. All I know is that getting back wouldn't be such a problem for me. The only major problem is getting there, what to do & whether to hail a cab from the closest train station. (: The rest, i have already prepared for. Hopefully, it turns out right on the day itself. Sometimes, my mind doesn't work as well as on the actual day itself. From what I see though, there's going to be a lot of girls with 'naturally curly' hair do. Yeah, a handful of them acutally permed their hair already. Nice timing, I must say, for the 'biggest' event of our whole secondary school year. As much as I want to make it big deal out of this whole Grad Night, I will try not to. I mean, I find it so superficial & shallow. With so many Hollywood movies I have watched, Grad Night is so cliche for me. But oh well, girls being girls, they dress to impress everyone, me included. I mean, indirectly, it is the last time anyone is going to see anyone for God knows how long. That is, unless you have good friends, then it is a night to remember. Learn from High School Musical 3: Senior Year. Graudating ladies/ girls should learn from Hollywood movies. You should learn & breathe prom night.

Hey, I think I want to shed some kilos, maybe 2 to 3 kg, to satisfy myself. I haven't been in shape for like 3 months. I tried resorting to not eating (not being anorexic), just didn't have to appetitie to eat, that's all. Now, I am resorting to being healthy, which means, EXERCISING! As you can see (read) I am not a being fan of physical activities, so this may come as a surprise to people close to me. They see me as the girl who wouldn't get off the chair for anything. Damn lazy, huh?

I am going for the Red Camp. It's actually a full 3 day camp, no sleepovers (thank God!). Ngeen Ann Poly is organising it. A few of my friends signed up for it, but one kinda 'forced' me to it, really. As much as I wanna lazy my ass off the next few days, I cannot. I will be too busy this week. Exercising, hopefully get some shopping done. Like I said, shopping is a hopeful yearning. Might as well get this over and done with cause the week after Grad Night will be as mundane as my life. Which says a lot, cause my life wasn't so happening to begin with. LOL. (:

Anyho, I have got to ask my dad permission for the many activities that I want to do before he says no. (:

xoxo,
NJ (:

Go APPS.

2009-10-14T16:47:00.001+08:00

So, I just downloaded this app that allows me to blog, on-the-go! Cool or what? Anw, just afternoon's Hari Raya 'gathering' was fun stuff even though I am not really close to the juniors except for a special few. The secondary ones were such snobs, so why bother wasting time with these people yeah? I want O's to be over & done with. Ah well. It is going to happen though in a month or so. Then, F-R-E-E-D-O-M. I did spell it correctly right? My sister's friends are coming over for Hari Raya. I'm not even ready to go for something. I was supposed to reach there at 4.30pm. It's 4.45pm & I have yet to take my bath, get dressed or done anything much, really. I have got a tummyache now. What say I skip my whole plan? Sounds tempting, but I wanna get this over & done with. Which reminds me, I must inform Cikgu about our consultation timing. I forgot that this coming Monday is a public holiday - Deepavali. Ok, ok. Better get going before I get beheaded by someone. Lol.

xoxo,
NJ (posted through Blogpress)

Blogskin/GradNight

2009-10-09T14:56:00.002+08:00

Guys, what do you think of my new blogskin? I am thinking of changing it.. again. This blogskin is so nice. Now though, I am having second thoughts about this blogskin. Oh well, if I have the time or if I remember, I will actually change the skin. However, now is not the time do waste time on such trivial things. Well, I am going for our Graduation Night (aka PROM) after O levels. I know it is finally being held in the hotel. I don't really know how to spell the hotel name out, but there's a KING HOTEL in it. (: I didn't really have any intentions to go cause most of my classmates said they weren't really going. I have paid my deposit as of today. (: A plus, I just found out that almost all my classies are going to this. Oh well. I don't really like the idea of prom. It's so cliche, you know? You could say that this will be the last time I will ever see the prettier/presentable sides of my classmates. Like for me, I don't really give a damn about how I look in school, honestly! I look like crap half the time in school. Just ask my classmates. It is a wonder to me how I normal I look in most of my class pictures & photos with me wearing my school uniform.

Oh, it's finally the end of my school. From Monday henceforth, it is consultation week. You meet with the teachers, ask them all your unanswered questions & hopefully, you ace your exam papers. (: God bless.

Hari Raya month this year is so mundane. I think (actually, I know) that it is due to O's being so close. Science practical starts on the 22 Oct. SHIT! I forgot to check my shift allocation. Hopefully, I'll be in shift 2 or 3. I mean, the confinement period is like 3-4 hours. Like, OMG! Scary shit, no? I wanna get O's over & done with without regrets. OH WELL.. I must do my best from now till the end of my O's, 11 Nov. (:

Raya, O-Nine.

2009-09-22T23:18:00.006+08:00

Hey, hey, hey! (: So the first day of HARI RAYA rocked. ((: seriously. Anw, I was a bit disappointed with a few of my friends. Oh well. No school cause I don't have papers to sit for, until Thursday. That is my last paper, Science (Physics/Chemistry) MCQ. Scary stuff, even though it is only an hour. Then no school til next week. That'll be my last week in school as a student. I think it goes like that. It's just inching closer & closer to the big day. The first O' level paper that I have to sit for is my Science Practical. Then after that, it's full speed ahead till November 11. Let's hope freedom will be a fun one.

I don't take HARI RAYA pictures. HARI RAYA was kinda bittersweet. I mean, you have this satisfied feeling cause after all the fasting & waking up early to eat our meal, it's finally paid off & you finally get to eat to your hearts' content. That's the sweet part. The bitter part is too hard to put in words cause i tried putting/ explaining to a friend the bitter part & he did not really get it, so I won't try to explain the bitter part already. Let's just say, the souls go back to wherever they came from. It's a polar opposite as the Chinese 7th Month. Absolutely, positively opposite to that. Go figure.

Prelim 2.

2009-09-16T14:09:00.004+08:00

There isn't much to blog about. Other than the fact that Prelims 2 is stressing me out, it is definitely hard for me to cope. I mean, talk about a huge gap! (: Add that to the fact that my ex 'crush' is on SI! I mean, I'd be seeing it on telly every week! Just when you thought it couldn't get any harder, it did! I tried squeezing all the spring cleaning in 2 days, but it is impossible. It really is. The amount of junk I keep year after year after year. I really feel like a pack-rat. I cleared out my junk pretty well, I must say. Though I took a long time, cause I tend to reminisce. (: Such a sentimentalist at heart.

Anw, I am going to continue my cleaning tomorrow, after my Principles Of Accounts (POA) Paper, which reminds me that I have got to finish up Malay homework whilst studying for POA.

Hey, does anyone of you guys know where to download songs from? Really in need of a reliable website. (;

Well, I am so psyched that Hari Raya is coming! It's coming! It's finally coming! After all the fasting & waking up uber early in the morning, it is coming! Gosh! I don't know why I'm so excited this year as compared to last year. Don't know, don't care. Cause HARI RAYA IS COMING! (:

High on BLG!

2009-08-28T22:14:00.004+08:00

Screwed my English Oral. Everything got the better of me. English Prelim 2 was a tough one. English Paper 1, section 2, especially. So distracting. Oh well, I did my very best for everything. Hopefully it pays off. (:

Listening to BLG - Love Drunk. Love, love, love them! (:

Sometimes, befriending someone you have never talked to is actually a breath of fresh air. Exciting. (:

English Pre-Oral Jitters.

2009-08-20T21:05:00.003+08:00

The title kinda says it all. I will be the last few students/ candidates to sot for oral on that particular day. How unfortunate & fortunate at the same time. Fortunate because I get to make a last impression. Unfortunate because they examiners would be stressed & tired. That's it. I am going to faint/die of jitters. I hope that being the last few wouldn't affect my results. I mean, it is ENGLISH after all. Most important subject to pass. That & a few other subjects that even though not mentioned, must ace. Furthermore, it's on MONDAY!

xoxo,

NJ. ((:

p.s: Good night!

Pandemonium Week.

2009-08-20T20:20:00.008+08:00

This just in.

I am going to sit for my MT paper - AGAIN. The reason, (1) I am not satisfied with the grade that I got. (2) I know I can do so much more better than whatever grade I got. I told Dad to sign the form. So, ladies & some gents? I am sitting for my MT O' level paper 1 & 2. FYI, you do not get to sit for paper 3 again. I do not really mind cause the stress from paper 3 is overwhelming. Let me just sit & start praying for a miracle to happen to me. I need to get better than what I got. It comes to a point (for me) where it's a need rather than a want. I hope to go to Junior College (JC), though I am having seconds thoughts because I am failing my Math & Sci (Chemistry/Physics). I am doing everything I can to ace both my weakest subjects. Well, almost everything. (;

Let me reflect on how this week went so far. I think it has been quite uneventful especially during the recent Wednesday. Some teacher who was in charge of discipline scolded & commanded me to buy a pair of school socks because I wasn't wearing them (the school socks, I mean). Weird, cause she scolded me in English to buy the damn socks, when I didn't exactly react immediately, she shouted in Malay (like I was so dumb, I couldn't understand English! Whatthehell!).

Chinese/Discipline teacher shouted, "SEKARANG!" It's Malay for, "NOW!"

Hilarious, I tell you. I was laughing my butt off when I was finally allowed to enter the parade square. I bought the pair of socks, just showed it to her & walked off. I got to the parade square without actually wearing the school socks for the whole day. Wasted my (how much IS the school socks?) money. Oh well, all for a cause. (:

I have set for so many tests that I now feel as if there is always a test everyday of the school week. The fact is, 4/5 of the school week, there's bound to be a test or a surprise test. Secondary 5 is hard, for me at least. I wonder how you clever people do it. I know it's all hard work & practice, practice. I just can't sit still & do revision for more than 2 hours at a time. I think it's because there is so many distractions in the room. Like my phone, or my iPod for example. I should just get rid of these distractors from the room or hide it till I forget where I hid it. (: That sounds like a marvellous idea for me, actually. I wonder, whether it will work.

Wish me luck (for so many things)!

NDP/ SI.

2009-08-10T00:56:00.004+08:00

I have loads of homework that I have yet to do. Shucks. Then, I have loads of class tests I have to sit & study for. This coming week is not going to be fun at all. I want to sleep, but I am still in the midst of downloading songs by Snow Patrol (cause I just finished watching MTV World Stage). I want to go to Sunway Lagoon KL, just to watch MTV World Stage. Let me see who is going to person there; Boys Like Girls, All-American Rejects, Kasabian, Hoobastank, Pixie Lott & a few of their local artistes. Dayyymnnn.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! :D

Singapore Idol '09 auditions debut on tv was hilarious. Some contestants are delusional, yeah? Especially the 'Asian Avril Lavigne!' GOD! She is a sad person. I give her props for having the guts to embarrass herself. (:

Well, good night/ early morning! :)

School Celebration, ND '09

2009-08-07T20:28:00.003+08:00

This mornings' ND celebrations in school was uber, uber, uber fun! I had loads of fun. Sitting at the gallery with classmates/ schoolmates I have known for close to 5 years was amazing. The guys were especially entertaining! Joining the flag we received to create the longest national flag thingy was hilarious. I joined in cause I got nothing else to do & cause, "If you can't beat 'em, join 'em!" Furthermore, I wanted to remember my last year celebrating ND celebrations with the school. Well, it WAS a fantastic day to remember, albeit a short one. Actually the celebrations itself was a short & boring one. Obviously the sec 5's got bored & started doing something ridiculous. Our quest to make the longest flag was interrupted (more like it) by the lower secondary students. God! I was too pissed! (:

brb, dinner is served.

Prelim 1.

2009-07-31T15:45:00.003+08:00

IDK how well I did for my Prelim 1 because I did not exactly sit for 3/4 of the papers. What I sat for was; English, Social Studies, Science (Chemistry) & Math. Half of which I failed miserably badly. I passed English & Social Studies. Mediocre grades was all I got. I have been constantly doing my Ten- Year Series (TYS) for most of my subjects. I did the timetable like most of the teachers encouraged us to do. Now, all I need to do is follow it religiously. I am working hard to achieve my grade goal.

FYI, Mother Tongue O' level results coming out in the two weeks time. OH. MY. GAWD. Hyper-ventilating already. Seriously, no matter how well I think I did for my paper, I know there is obviously someone who does better than me. Not that I am afraid of losing out the majority of the student population, but not achieving my goal is what worries the shit out of me. I think I should leave the rest to God to decide. (: Cause I know I did my best. A week or two after the national holiday, I will be sitting for my English Oral. Scary shit, yes?

Emotional wreck this week. I do not really know why. Anyway, I feel absolutely better after talking & venting out on Y & UJ. It is as though a heavy burden has been lifted. Or simply evaporated. However, I do have a nagging feeling that it will be short-lived. As with most things. Even though I feel much discouraged by my Math results. Nevertheless, I will take this stupid Prelim 1 as a bloody huge stepping stone & work so much more harder for Prelim 2. Which, might I add is also coming. Either the 3rd week of August or the end of the month.

Let me get the grade that I want & need to get for Malay O's so that I will be able to do something worthwhile during my Malay lessons. (:

xoxo.

New York City!

2009-07-19T20:24:00.006+08:00

I WANT to, actually it's more than a want. It is a NEED. I NEED to go to NEW YORK CITY. Just cause. Maybe even live there. I happened to watch 'The City' marathon weekend last night & I was so transfixed by NY. It's like everything magical & everything disastrous can happen all at once. They (Idk which they they are) say that if you have lived & survived in New York City, you can survive anywhere else. Don't really know how much truth is in it. Still, I just want to go there, get my own apartment & create a whole new life. Away from my pasts. Easier said than done, though. Maybe I will get the chance. Then again, maybe not. Oh well, just as long as I get to actually to visit the city is fine by me. Both fun & scary at the same time, don't you think? Starting in a new city all by yourself. Gives me the shudders, just thinking about it. New York, the big apple, the city that NEVER sleeps. I know I won't get to actually live there, so fine. Just let me explore the city. I don't think I will even have a chance of visiting NY cause Mum doesn't want to travel there.

She says, "Too modern. What's there to see in NY?"

Anyways, finished up the present that I made for Y. Her birthday's coming. Well, technically still 3 more weeks or so to go. I just thought that doing it earlier would give me ample time to concentrate on something else, like studying for example. Of which I have yet to do. The urgency to study is still not there. Someone give me a wake up call. This is where I get off. (:

PMS-ing.

2009-07-12T20:10:00.005+08:00

Getting periods always make me edgy. Prior to getting my periods, my emotions run high. Absolutely high. I get too emotional. Too angry, too sad & too irritated easily. None of which are the least bit comforting. I get upset & cry over the littlest things. If I were to get shouted at by anyone (esp Dad), I would cry my heart out. I don't know why this happens. Whatever the case, Mum does not believe in PMS. She thinks I am forever in a state of angst. It is hard, really when you emotions jumble up all at once & you start being so pessimistic. The first few days of my periods are the worst, cause I feel like the whole world has turned against me. Even my loved ones. It's impossible to deal with. I cry, cry & cry til my tear ducts can't cry no more. I cry til I God knows when. Every little thing gets me upset. I feel like I am being isolated from my friends. Once the sadness goes away, anger kicks in. Not anger per se, more towards revenge. I think. Oh well, I will try live with it. Life is full of problems, but half the time, I pull together whatever strength left in me & smile. (:

Cause most of the time, smiling keeps you from crying.

Oral.

2009-07-10T22:11:00.009+08:00

This week has been both mentally & physically tiring for me.

Malay O' lvl orals took the bulk of it all. Being the weakest person in all of the O' level candidates, I knew that I would be at a disadvantage. This time though, I didn't cry though I screwed it big time. Maybe it was cause of the fact that I none of my friends were actually taking the same oral as me. E was supposed to be there, but she was on medical leave. I was the only girl. I thought I would be the last girl to go through oral from our school. Turns out, I wasn't even close to last. I was the FIRST GIRL, the FIRST SCHOOL to go. YCK Secondary was the school after us. Not many students were taking the oral exam today. I made LM accompany me. Firstly, cause I was so damn scared. Secondly, I didn't know how to get (neither did she). Thirdly, being the only Secondary 5 person (the rest being the 3 higher Malay Secondary boys) made me freak out. I mean, as it is, going to a foreign school where you usual get everyone staring at you is daunting. Let alone walk into the school & wonder around the compound. Anyway, not one student stared at any of us. They were absolutely accommodating, honestly. The vibe in the school was nice. The toilet was so darn clean, dry & comfortable. Unlike our toilets. (: Couldn't find the canteen at all. I didn't even get a chance to get a glimpse of it. Let alone taste any of their food. LM & I purposely didn't want to eat lunch there cause we were afraid it would have been the same case as last year. I shudder at that memory.

Last night, before my Malay O' oral, I went to hysteria-mode. It was so scary for me. I could not finish my homework on time, just mentally freakin' myself out made me not think straight at all. I was all over the place. Scattered. Everything was falling apart at such a drastic rate that eventually, I broke down & cried my heart out. I cried my heart out, in the dark. Whilst everyone else was eating dinner. When Mum came in, she didn't notice anything out of place. Yeah, I was that good. The fact that not a single person at home asked me whether I was anxious for oral, is beyond me. Not one person noticed that I had just finished crying, except for my maid. You would think Mums know best. LM reminded me to have faith in God. It was difficult for me because I sometimes think that I don't deserve to be treated nicely. Mostly, it was because I did not think I studied enough to deserve that grade. I know everything is eventually decided by God, cause He knows best. To me, it felt like I think I can control everything & not God. That was where I was obviously wrong. God knows what is best for us. Even if we suffer now, I am sure He has His reasons for doing so. He knows we will get through this; stronger, wiser, better.

I tried my best. I did my best. Honestly, frankly, I did my best. Now, I pray that my best was enough to get the grade that I want and the grade that I deserve. :D Keep your fingers crossed for me. Pray for me, really. Please do. I will greatly appreciate it. (:

2009-06-27T23:20:00.002+08:00

The KL trip was the best. I mean, even though it was quick & short, it rocked. (:
I miss my cousins already. I am now waiting for Dods to upload the pictures on FB. Apparently, I have a 'boyfriend' back there. Hilarious I tell you. The whole time, Dods was making fun of him & me. (: You will know when the time comes who my 'boyfriend/couple/partner/other half' is. (:

2009-06-21T12:44:00.006+08:00

This is what I have been doing for the last 2 hours, VACUUMING! I mean, I did not take that long to vacuum the whole house. I took an hour to do so. Have you seen my house? I did not realise it was that BIG, until I started vacuuming. At least I am useful after all. (:

I cannot understand why people like cooking. Frankly, I would rather vacuum the house twice then actually cook. I am a hazard in the kitchen & to my family when I am in the kitchen. Washing the dishes, I don't mind. Wiping the counter top, I do not mind that one too, but cooking? It will be my last option. I am not domesticated when it comes to cooking. I think I will most likely burn the kitchen down when I do start to cook. You see, cooking & I, we go way back, way, way, WAY back.

During my secondary one home-economics final practical exam, we were all supposed to cook something. I obviously decided to cook the simplest form of food - Scrambled Eggs. I tried practising it a few times before the actual day. Naturally, I asked my mum to guide me through it (cause she makes the BEST scrambled eggs). It came out & tasted all right.

When the actually day came (if I am not wrong, it was the fasting month for me. Okay, maybe it wasn't). I started cooking. I forgot what my mum said to me about the salt (apparently you only put one TEASPOON). Only, I forgot how small the teaspoon was, you see I was inept when it came to cooking. (: Instead, I put one & a half TABLESPOON of salt cause when I asked my teacher how it tasted (I think I put a quarter tablespoon of salt then).

She told me, "Put more salt."

After cooking, we all had to present our food to the teacher. All of our 'creations' were gathered on a huge table. My teacher went around tasting every one's. I was up first, cause I was so damn confident mine tasted good (I followed my mum's instructions and remembered the steps).

Needless to say, the first thing that came out of her mouth was, "Too salty."

All my classmates were like, "Wah, really ah? I want to try."

One of my classmates told me the next day that after she ate my scrambled eggs, she had diarrhoea. Word got around about that incident. Soon, the whole class knew about it. I am a legend, for all the wrong things.

So you see, I cannot see myself cooking. I'll end up poisoning at least one soul. I am a highly dangerous person when it comes to cooking. (: Consider yourself warned when you try anything that I make (which is improbable because I do not intend to cook at any point of my life). You only get to taste/ try cakes that my mum bakes (if I bring it to school & if I see you). Mum bakes the meanest brownies & cakes. Ask any one of my friends, they'll agree (without a doubt).

2009-06-19T23:38:00.003+08:00

I shopped til I dropped a few days back. Still recovering. (: I just realised that I have a week before school reopens. OMG. Evidently, I am going to KL during the last week of the holidays. Kinda scary cause the first day of school is my Math paper 1. Weird, but oh well. I miss my cousins there. Wonder if Dad will allow me to do some shopping. (: Father's Day is coming. Got all the things ready for Father's Day. Write cards, CHECK. Printed picture, CHECK. What else am I forgetting? Oh yeah, making sure my sisters write the cards too, CHECK. I think I am ready. Though Dad hardly expects anything from us, but c'mon! It's FATHER'S DAY.

OMG. I want to watch the movie, Across The Universe again. I happened to watch it on cable last week & since then, I have been failing miserably to download the movie to my computer. I so like Jim Sturgess (must that damned! British accent). H made me make a lists of famous guys I would love to date. Hilarious, really. Her first choice was what'shisnameagain? Shucks, I forgot. My number one was Orlando Bloom, then I decided that he is just a wee bit too old for me. Hence, my new number 1 guy is... wait for it, CHACE CRAWFORD aka Nate Archibald (in GG). Oh, another hot guy. No hot accent, but I do not mind. (: Hopefully I got the spelling right, cause I forgot how to spell his name. (;

p.s: HAPPY 13th BIRTHDAY JU! (:

xoxo.

2009-06-14T21:00:00.000+08:00

I have been tortured to doing household chores since my maid left for a 2 week break. Though I am not complaining, I feel tortured. oh well. (:

2009-06-10T15:01:00.025+08:00

I am a twitter user already! (: I do not know why I got it, honestly. Oh well. I think it is kinda like facebook.
I still have to figure out how to use it though. So hopefully, I will get it to operationally work (eventually). (:

Anyway click on the link & follow me on twitter (whenever, wherever?),

http://twitter.com/n_jeff

now, how do I get it to work?

2009-06-09T21:24:00.002+08:00

OH YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAH! I finally got a friggin' tag board.
Now stop pestering/ harassing me already! (:

2009-06-09T20:19:00.006+08:00

I feel as if I have a 'mini' fan club. The Netball juniors are like the bomb! (:
This morning as I was walking to my Math class, the Netballers were having their warming up activities; stretching, etc.
My classmate, SW was ahead of me when suddenly, the majority of the Netballers started shouting my name.
ST went, "Wah, you got fan club ah!"
I was kinda dumbfounded if you ask me. I do not normally have that huge welcoming from anyone, really.
I replied, "Yeah. Cool, huh?"
The Netball juniors, actually only ONE is particular is harassing me to get a tag board.
Hence, I am finally getting one! (:
This is where that particular person claps her hands & shouts, "LIKE FINALLY!"

Anyway, Math class was really a waste of time. I mean, I would have preferred to stay at home & sleep. I do not get to do so because it is Math & I suck at Math.
On the bright side, I have no lessons tomorrow! WOO-HOO! :)

2009-06-02T22:24:00.009+08:00

Hopefully, I will ace my Malay O's with flying colours. If not flying colours, then colours would do just fine for me. Just so long as the colours are still flying and not crawling colours. Oh what am I getting at?
All I am saying is, "FLYING COLOURS = B three & below!"

Keep your fingers crossed, people! (:

oh, I am supposed to be asleep already.

2009-06-02T21:51:00.004+08:00

OH. MY. GAWD! Have you seen? Have you actually watched it? Have you even heard of it? The friggin' NEW MOON trailer?
If not, go watch it before you belong to the last century. (:
Like seriously, so damn hot! Oh, Edward & Bella's kiss in Twilight won the "Best Kiss" MTV Movie Awards 2009 (if I'm not wrong). I am so beginning to think Kristen Stewart is hot & sexy. I mean, she has that look. Oh well.

I have school tomorrow. English Prelim 2 Oral. Gross. I mean, oh well. I hope I do well. Kinda not excited. I wanna sleep in, like seriously. I have not slept in the since the school holidays, which is sad. SLEEEEEEEEPPPPPPYYYY! Science (Physics/Chem) Mock Practical was not a success. I kinda suck at practicals. I think I will fail, but God forbid that ever happens. Oh well. GOD! I miss them Netball girls. (: I should sleep, now I guess.

Goodnight.
xoxo,
NJ (:

2009-05-21T17:03:00.004+08:00

Let me just start by saying this, "I TOLD YOU SO!"
KRIS ALLEN WON AMERICAN IDOL (Season 8)!

"HELL YEAH!" (:
Oh man, Kris rocks. No pun intended to those who like Adam, but I prefer Kris.
I always pick winners, man!
Like last year, everyone of my classmates were voting for David Archuleta, except for me!
David Cook won, in the end.
I so rock!

Anyways, I told my maid to watch the finals for me. When the results came at 10 am, I went to the washroom to see what my maid said. To my surprise, she told me Kris won! I was in the cubicle, jumping & screaming (in silence). (:

Most of my classmates wanted Adam Lambert to win. So when I came into class, I told A who the winner was, then almost 1/4 of the class went like, "Who won? Who won?!"

Sweet victory, for me! (:

2009-05-15T18:28:00.003+08:00

I am only a few more posts away from reaching the 3 digit mark! (:
all right, nothing much to say. Sleepy, tired & sleepy.

Preliminary Exam 1 is coming. Oh, I have to sit for my Social Studies test, again (cause I 'failed' it).

Sleeeeeeeeeepppppppppppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! :D

2009-05-14T20:44:00.004+08:00

Making this fast, making this quick (as usual).
There was not any PE lessons today, which ROCKS!
I have too many tests to sit for in the coming week (no biggie).
I am going to have to do something about something (no idea).

ANNNNNNNNNNNNND..

I am a KRIS ALLEN FAN! :D
I have got the KRIS ALLENATION bug! :D :D :D

He is so cool! I love his Heartless rendition!
OH MY GAWD! The song was totally stripped.
From Hip-Hop/Rap? to Acoustics.. that was THE BOMB! :D :D

I am sad that Danny Gokey left. He would have been a better contender to compete with Adam Lambert, but oh well.
At least Kris Allen is in the FINALSSSSSSS! (:

2009-05-06T15:48:00.002+08:00

I am at home, while the rest of my classmate are still in school. It feels good, really. I am sick. What a blast it is, sleeping in. Oh, tomorrow Thursday, a day closer to the weekend, I guess.

Anyway, I want to hit the sack, yet again. Not sure when, maybe soon. That reminds me, I have to study! Preliminary 1 is coming up, very soon. Oh well. Too tired to actually post anything. If only it is like this every week..

2009-05-01T00:27:00.007+08:00

I was so bummed today. When the whole Secondary 5 cohort went to the zoo, my English was forced to sit for the freakin' timed test. I mean just cause we made up our minds to not go to the zoo. I actually wanted to go to the zoo. Have not been there in a while. Oh well, too late to do anything really. Ms K finally told us our oral marks. About time too. It took her more than a month to give us our oral marks. She keeps on forgetting about us. Maybe she has too much on her mind. Oh well.

Anyways, it's finally Friday! Thank God for Labour Day! I am so sleepy, really. It is 12.33AM on a Friday morning. No school! I am so elated that there is no school. If only every week will be like this. I wanna lose weight. (: Quite seriously.

I cannot believe some of my friends are not taking O' levels seriously. Even after our teacher gave us a really harsh reality check, could they still not see the seriousness in this? You still have the guts to say that our teacher is demoralising us. Sorry to break it to you, but only you can make yourself feel demoralised. You already sat for N' levels, so what? Fuck, I have also sat for my N' levels too. Do you actually see me slacking away? They are all so good at not coming to school for days. To them, it is normal to not be in school for the whole week. A week does not go by without at least 2 days of absence. I am actually being effing patient in helping them get their worksheets & telling them about the assignments. I feel like I should be paid to do so. So what if you are my friend? Seriously, I do not give two shits about you unless you show me that you are actually keen on changing your attitude. At the rate that they are going, it will be an effing miracle if they actually make it to the course that they want.

Whenever anyone asks me what happened to any of them, I would go, "Well, it is either (a) fever, (b) stomach ache, (c) not feeling well, (d) body aching or (e) tired. Take your pick. Most prolly it's one of the given options."

The classmates would go, "Wah! (laughter)."

What more can I say? So, they are not feeling well. Dude, I do not give a shit. The best part, they can actually go out with their 'friends'. The only thing they are more worried about than school is; whether they got together with the right guy and/or whether he will get upset over trivial things. Seriously, go piss yourself. So, you completed your homework on time, do I care? Answer is, I still do not give a damn. Even they themselves feel that at this pace, they would not succeed. I am like, "What are you going to do, then?"

Can you imagine, I have to go through this every single week. Since the start of the year. Every single week. I have yet to blow my top at them. If I do, hell broke lose. (:

2009-04-25T20:20:00.004+08:00

I woke up way early for a Saturday this morning. Mum & I wanted to go to the 'Designer Fragrances & Cosmetics' Sale. It was the bomb, & cost a bomb too. Yeah, I went nuts cause well, it was all designer stuffs on discount! It really reminded me of one of the scene is Confessions Of A Shopaholic. It actually started late, but anyhow, I got whatever perfumes that I wanted. We bought so much perfumes & cosmetics. I kept on taking bottle, bottle & bottles of perfumes & just dumping it in the bag. It came to a point where Mum went, "You HAVE to choose." Hilarious really.

Anyways, I have got to go eat my dinner.

I ENJOYED myself today! (:

2009-04-20T22:04:00.004+08:00

Lost & found (random).

Man, this dude is seriously pissing me off. Bloody whatever-his-name-is, I don't care. He is M something. Apparently I have been chatting with for the past year! How could I not remember someone (especially an Aussie)?! Plus he is not telling me who he is. Goodness! I am purposely ignoring the urge to pester him to tell me who he is, but it's the contrary.

Anyway, I have got to tidy up my table before I go to sleep. Too sleepy already. Tomorrow we are having Math time test. Urggghhh, it just gets worse!

xoxo,
NJ. (:

p.s: Good night.

2009-04-18T20:32:00.002+08:00

I went out F today. (: Had loads to catch up. We went to CCK, just for fun. I wanted to get 2 tops (on sale for $20), but there was only one colour that was nice. Too bad, though. Nothing much to blog about right now.

I need to do loads of homework, not tonight. I want to enjoy my Saturday (what's left of it). (:

2009-04-17T18:02:00.002+08:00

I just realised that I there are two guys with the initials D that are my 'pen-pals'. Well, let's rename my Swiss dude, then. He will be DS. Anyway, this week has been hectic, to say the least. I sat for so many class tests that I constantly think that there'll be more tests that I have to sit for the next day. Which isn't the case. (:

Social Studies class test was a killer! I flunked it, I think. That will mean that I have to sit for a re- test. Sucks, but hopefully it helps me improve my essay skills. Malay Peribahasa was a fluke. I merely passed the test. Oh well, learning from my mistakes. What other tests have I sat for? Let me see.. Geography (Map Reading & Deforestation in Kalimantan), Principles Of Accounts (Ratios - Markup & Margin), English (Summary), Social Studies (Globalisation).

Up coming tests, Physics (Electromagnetism), Chemistry (Test for Cations, Anions) & another Principles Of Accounts (Ratio - Rate of Stockturn) That should be all, I think. (:

This is the last week I will be attending Netball. Time for me to step down, guys! Probably means I have to really, really concentrate on my studies. (:

2009-04-12T22:17:00.003+08:00

Heyho!
Apparently Netball has a blog!

So anyways, this weird guy added me on MSN. It's a HE. (: I just find most guys weird. He is let me think.. Swiss? Oh well. He's from Switzerland, obviously. You cannot be a Swiss & not be from Switzerland, right? I forgot how old he is. He looks good. Since I did not add him to my contact list, I could not see a picture of him. Though he could see my picture, which makes MSN Messenger twisted. How can he see mine when I did not allow him to my contact list? Oh well, I told him I could not see his picture. He sent it to me via email. (: You should see this guy, hilariously weird, but good-looking. Clever too.
p.s: He's name is D.

Anyway, it just gets weirder.

2009-04-09T20:19:00.002+08:00

I feel the need to chew on something. Like just chew on something. Okay, maybe not chew, but eat something. I have been eating loads & loads & loads of sweets for the past 2 weeks. Yes, I went a wee bit insane when I went to Uncle Tidbits & bought 300g worth of just sweets. (: I have a sweet tooth, cannot really help it. The next day is Good Friday, which means, I can sleep in. I have been sleeping later than usual since the start of Term 2. Too much homework to squeeze into by the next day. Plus, there's Netball training, Netball not-so-friendly matches. Oh well, what to do, what to do. Welcome to the life of a Secondary 5 person. The jump from N' levels to O' levels is humongous.

I need to eat, need to. All right, maybe it's want to eat. I NEED/WANT food. OMGosh, thank God that my cupboard is filled with junk food. I am a junkie too! (:

I'm going to sleep early today, I think.

2009-03-27T19:56:00.002+08:00

I finally changed my blogskin! Yay! After an especially long procrastination. I took my time, no rushing. I'm so lazy. Even though this is the first week of term 2, I feel as if I've gone to school the whole year & just went off for a week of resting. Cannot be called a holiday, really.

Had 2 matches postponed this week cause of the stupid lightning alert. Unbelievable. (:
I'm tired & cranky. Seriously. My leg like hurts so badly. I can't even stand straight. I'm blogging using the lappy now. I have Malay Orals the next day! I'm prolly going to flunk it, given my inability to speak proper Malay. Goodness! I'm sitting for the freakin' Os! Great. Good luck to me, I guess.

2009-03-19T12:51:00.002+08:00

I am so lazy to move my ass of the computer. However, I cannot afford to be lazy. It's already Thursday & there is still loads of homework to finish. I need it to be done by today! Which gives me about 11 more hours to finish everything. Oh, I have yet to eat my brunch. It just gets worse. It's THURSDAY, for crying out loud. School is going to open in like days! DAYS, people DAYS! Soon, it will be hours! Just wait.. OMGosh! Not a holiday at all. I have yet to actually start studying for anything! Believe me when I say that this sucks. Darnit. Teachers sure are sad people, man! (: What homework DO I have left? Let's see, Chemistry (Paper 3), Malay (2 Karangans), Geography (notes). It may seem little, but in truth it's overwhelming!

My plans to change blogskins has been dashed. Yes, it has been a failure. Not my failure, but the designers of the blogskin? Supposedly, there's always a lack of ("") in the blogskin, which affects everything. Then there's XML, wth IS XML? The only thing that comes to mind is Extra Medium Large! (: Makes no sense, but who actually cares? Will some kind soul explain to me what XML is? Pretty please? It will be much appreciated, honestly.

2009-03-16T20:30:00.004+08:00

I am so dead bored. Did I tell you about how my DE went? I think I did, but I do not really remember. Oh well. I feel the Monday blues even though I am not in school. If there are any extra classes this week, I am going to ignore it. Unless it's lessons, then I would go. Otherwise, CCAs & whatnot will be staunchly ignored by me! (: I am so lazy like that.

I think I look photogenic in most of the photos that has me in it. Being narcissistic, but it is kind of a fact. :D

Mirs went for Library camp today. Who knew that there is a library camp? Lame, but she was psyched. I miss her already. I actually miss loads of my friends. Y, J, S, H & so many more! I miss then like crazy. Oh wait, T too! All right, I am bored already. I kind of started on my homework already. I still have loads to do. Principles Of Accounts (5 more questions), Malay (3 Karangans, for crying out loud!), Math, Geography (notes), Chemistry (Paper 3). It just gets worse. I should prolly wake up early the next day & start doing it. I feel overwhelmed as it is already. Secondary 5 for you! (:

2009-03-14T22:07:00.005+08:00

I went to Suntec with Mum today! (: It was so freakingly crowded! Suntec was filled to the maximum human capacity (exaggeration). It was crowded none the less. We were actually there cause of The Body Shop warehouse sale. We were actually lost, so we ended up buying chocolates at The Cocoa Tree sale. :D Bought accessories too! It was on sale, so I bought like truckloads of them! (: Only then, did we find our way to The Body Shop warehouse sale. It was on the 3rd floor of the building, West entrance. The place seemed small, but once you get closer, you see so many people crowding one area. It was like survival of the fittest, seriously! It's insane. Can't really blame them because the economy's so bad. Plus, the sale went for up to 70% off (what's not to like?). I got pushed, elbowed & stepped on half the time. Most of them kept pulling my bag away with them cause my bag's huge. Some girls' long hair got in my face & I went like, "OMGod, gross, gross, GROSS! Your hair is in my freakin' face!"

Everyone who heard it stared at me. It was hilarious, really. The owner just ignored me! I felt like pulling her hair out of her head! After like 30 minutes of pure 'fighting', grabbing, then throwing the stuff back, I finally got those that I wanted. After paying for the items, Mum wanted to go to the Burberry sale. Only problem was, she did not know where it was. We went to the floor above, only to find that it was the IT show thingy. Asked one of the security guy. Found Burberry sale, I went crazy. Quite literally.

I've been meaning to finish posting this post at 9 pm. However, being an unsuccessful multi-tasker, this post has only been done right about this time - NOW! :D

2009-03-13T20:20:00.006+08:00

The whole morning was filled with talks & talks from many schools. The whole 4Exp/5NA had to go to NYP for some interview talks. You have no idea how many times we have been to NYP. We have been there for like a million times! Can you believe it? It's that bad. Not saying that NYP is crap or anything, it's just that that's the only Polytechnic we've been to since Secondary 1! Hah! The only thing that almost everyone looked forward to the whole day was Dining Etiquette (DE). This is the only chance (other than Prom) that we get to dress up. Came 12.30 pm, everyone started getting into the toilets. My plan was to change on the last level of the washroom. That went horribly wrong, cause most of the girls occupied the end washrooms. Oh well. I was so self- conscious after I changed cause well, I'm not used to wearing something nice to school. (:

Took pictures, not that many though. Oh well. What's done is done I guess. The March holidays are finally here. I am going to do all my homework in 2 days so that I get to enjoy or at least study some of my weaker subjects. I think I look like crap for the DE thingy. Honestly! I'll upload a few pictures for you too see. (: I guess this week was definitely better than the last. Though my parents & I are not really on talking terms. The DE was uber fun! The 4- course meal was exciting. Entree - Mushroom soup w/ Garlic Bread. Followed by Grilled Chicken (which I did not finish up, I dislike chicken!), then there is the Dessert - Coffee cake?
oh well. It was overall nice. After all that, I felt like vomiting out whatever I ate. Oh good God! I was full.

G was like, "You bulimic, ah?"

I was like, "Hell, NO!"

I want to go to K's birthday 'party' the next day, but Dad so did not allow me. Well, he hardly ever allows me to go out. I think I will be like the most protected person from the outside world in the world! I truly hope it made sense. (:

2009-03-12T20:56:00.002+08:00

OMGosh! The next day is Dining Etiquette (DE). Which means, I have to dress up, formally. This is so troublesome. I don't think I like dressing up in school. Oh man! Safe to say, I am freakin' out! Firstly, I do not know how to stuff the dress into my bag. Secondly, I do not know what accessories to use it with. Omgosh! Lastly, I do not know if I actually want to wear that particular dress. It is from Mango. I bought it like last year for some festivity, but I have yet to actually wear it. It is like a tube? I have absolutely no idea. Then there's the issue of no make-up. I won't be using any, well never used any in my life before. (:

Today's Celebrate Life seminar is interesting. I took all/ most of the pamphlets from the 5 polytechnics is Singapore. I have never taken as many pamphlets/ brochures in my life. Oh well, there is always the first for something. The talks I signed up for (not many choices, really) have been informative? God!, I sound so diplomatic, who am I kidding? Seriously, I think it as really open my eyes? Speakers from JCU, SP, NYP & loads more came to give talks. interesting, really.

Still deciding, still thinking, STILL panicking! (:

2009-03-08T21:48:00.002+08:00

I watched the Watchmen last night. I did not get it at all. I think it was pretty gruesome & too violent for my taste. It was kinda boring too, I guess. Oh well. I am tired. Famished too, but I just took dinner. Weird, huh? Well, I should prolly read its synopsis.

Good bye & Good night.

2009-03-06T21:07:00.007+08:00

I did not run for Jog-a-thon this year! I was not allowed to run because of my flu & cough. SHUCKS! I had so much enthusiasm for like the whole week. I was actually excited for the run. Rare, but it happens. I wanted to run & get like the top 30 among the Upper Secondary girls. Obviously, it did not happen. We ran around AMK Park. I had fun watch Angus, Thongs & Perfect Snogging for the millionth time. Only this time, I watched it with Y! Then we watched Game Plan. It was uber, fantastically fun! :D

Oh, this is hard. Being in Secondary 5 is hard. Oh well. I don't know if I am able to do this. I feel like giving up halfway. This week has been hard, on me. Both mentally & physically. You should know, when I am stressed, I fall sick. Like really sick. It's just the way my body system works. Stressful, really. I dragged myself out of bed, with aches all over my body, pounding headache, runny nose & a throat that hurts like hell. Maybe running in the rain during Physical Exercise (PE) contributed to that too. Not really sure about that. I have been busy since the 1st proper school week of the year. I know it is going to get tougher. What I do not know is, if my body can take the stress & pressure that will be amounting come closer to the O' levels. Oh well. I failed 3 subjects & passed 3 subjects for Common Test (CT). I dropped Economics. The subject teacher told me I should concentrate on Math because apparently, both the Math paper 2 & Economics Paper 1 or 2 is slated on the same day. Too bad, I guess. So much for, "Going for it." I have not told anyone of my family members about my failure. It's just that I will be getting the silent treatment if they found out. Evidently, there are many things that I hide from my parents regarding school. I would rather just keep my mouth shut & suffer in silence as compared to be at the receiving end of the silent treatment. They say, "Actions speak louder than words." It is so true. I do feel like I need to escape all this every week by not coming to school, but that has never really happened. Fortunately, I do have a fantastic group of friends whom I know will never allow me to give up too easily. I have never received so much homework in my life before, you know? This is unbearable.

Firstly, I am pissed whenever someone thinks I have no problems in my life. I mean, COME ON!, everyone has problems at certain points of their lives. It may not be as bad as the second party, but it is STILL A PROBLEM. Secondly, everyone handles their problems differently. For me, I either keep it in & suffer in silence or tell someone (though my Dad's like against the latter one. Do not know why, but whateves, yeah). Thirdly, do not use personal problems an as excuse to your overall performance. I know it will affect you one way or another, but this is the final year. This whole, "I have problems at home" has got to end. Time to GET OVER IT. Lastly, try not to be a PMS-ing bum, yeah?
(p.s: to no one in particular)

I LOVE my parents to BITS! :D

2009-02-13T23:19:00.002+08:00

Angus, Thongs & Perfect Snogging.

2009-01-25T17:38:00.002+08:00

Chinese New Year is here! Which means only one thing, shops all over S'pore are closed (mostly all). Well, homework for the CNY is weighing tonnes, not a good thing. I finished most of them. Only Malay Latihan 1 is not done. Oh good God, it is so hard! My birthday is coming! I am so excited for me, I think. I have loads of class tests to sit for after this CNY holidays. Common Test is coming, very soon. Being an O' level student is hard. I mean, I now know just how big the gap from N' levels to O' levels is.

I am thinking of deleting this blog. Maybe soon, not now though. I guess blogging for now is still fun & not very demanding (if you know what I mean). Oh well. Cheers! And HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! (:

2009-01-17T00:23:00.002+08:00

Been a while, huh? Second week of school already. I think I will feel the pressure very, very soon. Especially since I just realised that January is coming to an end. Homework this year is outrageous. And I friggin' passed my Economics paper, though not with flying colours. Oh well, I think I will be taking it again. Though, keep your fingers crossed that it will be better than the current one. I am so tired. (:

2009-01-04T21:24:00.003+08:00

It has been a while since I logged on & posted something over here. Truth is, I have been having a blast in Europe. Paris & London to be exact. Yes, I seem to sense jaws dropping right about - now. Oh well. Paris is so uber fantastic. Same goes for London. Both cities are so rich in arts. It amazes me so much.

My December has been fun especially since getting back my N' level results. Not that I was there to actually receive it. Anyho, I did satisfactory (according to my parents, who by the way were happy). Well, I guess it is time for me to snap back to reality. The reality is my big O's. Yeah, I am happy I made it this far, but I don't really know if I will be able to go to the JC or poly that I want. I am not really thinking about poly right now, though.

Before I forget, HAPPY NEW YEAR! (: Hopefully 2009 would be as interesting as 2008.

2008-11-28T20:37:00.002+08:00

This was how my day went, The Promise musical at 3.30pm at United Conference Centre, NUS. Only we got there way early. Well, the whole school went there. Transportations were provided. I was late for it, as usual. The musical was 2 hours long. After it ended, there was much commotion because many did not know that we could just board any of the transport provided by the school. I was searching for my form teacher who apparently boarded the first bus back to school. It was until the DM shouted to the whole group of students & gave us instructions that my friends & I boarded the second bus back to school. We reached school at 6.10pm. I rushed to the MRT station because I had to pray & I was going to be late for my prayers, which would make my parents scream at me. Either that or my dad would patronise me in every possible way.

You know, for once (maybe twice) I would like to see my mum stick up for me. GOD! You have no idea how irritating it is when she would always take my dad’s side. I was pissed because my dad doubted me. I told my mum that & she freaked. She said I was too petty. God! You have no idea how fucking insignificant I feel! It was nice to see E & K after a long time. I mean, I do not not love them, but I like their company. I mean, I do not really need to pretend I’m interested in anything with them cause they know. IDK! I think I am losing it. Oh well! (:

2008-11-18T11:45:00.004+08:00

So, here is the thing. Everyone has a tragic life story to tell. It may not be as tragic as the person beside you or as dreadful, but it still is a hell of tragic story to you. (I sound so wise.) Anyway, inspiration came from the movie, The Holiday. (:

As I was lying on the bed, waiting for sleep to come to me, I started thinking. I think a lot for someone my age & at the oddest hours. I found out that right now, I am only wishing for one thing (or maybe two, no wait, 5 things); I want my parents to be able to go for Haji this freaking year. Yes, it is by a long shot, but I need them to go this year. I think it is the only thing that will make them happy (not that they are not happy now, but you get the gist).

2008-11-18T11:05:00.005+08:00

I have no idea how to start.

I don't think I know where to begin.

I think I am in a confused state. Maybe bored too.

This is cool & weird.

See? I am really twisted in the head right now.

Oh well. (:

2008-11-16T14:04:00.012+08:00

Ed Westwick is the BOMB! (: You have no idea how hot & cool he is. AAAAAHHHHH! I so love him (in a fanatic way). Gosh! He is so uber hot! (:

GOSSIP GIRL is one of my favourite television shows. The cast is like to-die-for. Everyone of them (inc. the girls). I think it is better than 90210 (in more ways). Oh well. I think Serina van Woodsen (Blake Lively) & Dan Humphrey (Penn Badgeley) are such a cute couple on & off screen. Well, hopefully in the series, Chuck Bass (Ed Westwick) & Blair Waldorf (Leighton Meester) get together. Nate Archibald (Chase Crawford) is like the all- american guy. Oh heavens! (:

2008-11-13T14:34:00.006+08:00

It's what day is it? Shit! I think I lost it. I don't even know what day it is today. All right. Let me think.. Oh, it is THURSDAY! A day closer to the weekends. Now, the weekends, I know. Nothing much has been going on. Oh well, heck.

I am going into obsession mode - TWILIGHT. Technically speaking, it will showing in the cinemas in a week from now, on 21 Nov 2008.. in the US. I guess I will have to wait a eons before I can actually catch the movie in S'pore (sad, huh?). I woke up very late today, 1 pm. Oh well, I am still sleepy. Today is the last day! I am excited. Gosh! I am so tired. I need to go to the library soon or I will die of boredom. As it is, I already am bored out of my mind. It is like being quarantined at home. Goodness gracious! Oh well.

2008-11-07T09:56:00.005+08:00

This morning started out nice. I am trying to be thankful for my blessings. I so dutifully woke up at 6.30 am (even though Dad woke me up). You would think that my now, I would have gotten used waking up early & all, but let me tell you I have not gotten used to anything. I am still sleepy. I cannot imagine doing this for the rest of my life. Waking up early to go to work & all. Gosh! It must sound/ seem to depressingly miserable.

I have spent a fair amount of time on the computer to master the 'art' of typing without looking at the keyboard. Twilight soundtrack is already out in the iTunes store. (: Excited for the movie (Twilight) is the understatement of the year. Oh well. I think I will get my sleep, soon.

I need to borrow more books to read. I am currently reading a book (600+ pages) per day. That sounds scary & it screams, "NO LIFE!" Do not get me wrong, I do go out. Just not with friends & certainly not on a weekday. You would think that I would be allowed permission to go out especially since it IS the holidays. Oh well. My parents think that by not letting me go out, I would be less likely to waste money on items that I clearly already have (only in a million versions!).

Too sleepy to do much today. (:

2008-11-05T15:19:00.008+08:00

90210 is the BOMB! (: I so love the cast. Jessica Stroup is like so cool. Same goes for Shenae Grimes. I think they are like so skinny, though I cannot really say anything about that. I actually like everyone of the casts. They are what they are, I guess. Oh well. Now I am a 90210 fan. I was not really a fan of the Beverly Hills 90210. (:

I think Ty's (Adam Gregory) teeth is too white for himself. ;)

I think that Annie (Shenae Grimes) should get together with Ethan (Dustin Milligan). Silver (Jessica Stroup) should go with Ty. I want to see how it turns out. It should be cool, no? (: Well, to each it's own, I guess. Naomi (Anna Lynne McCord) should be with that jock, George (Kellan Lutz). I cannot believe Kellan Lutz is also Emmet Cullen in Twilight. Mr. Ryan Matthews (Ryan Eggold) is too cute for a teacher. (: Oh well..

2008-11-04T20:19:00.004+08:00

I just realised that I think a lot when I am about to go to sleep, which is hilarious. Not much to blog about, really. I am starting to save electricity by using the computer for at least 2 hours per day. I honestly hope it helps, esp since they (the government?) increased the price of electricity. Mum is getting a wee bit concerned about our irresponsible use of electricity. Funny, cause I am the one who usually bothers about stuffs like this. Oh well. (:

I need to go out, shopping. I am so desperate to buy something. Anything that involves spending money. I need to shop/ go out soon or I will die of withdrawal symptoms. Goodness! (: Oh well, I just finished reading Sarah Dessen - Dreamland. I like the story a lot. Rogerson (main guy) is like kinda hot (must be the hair! ;) ). Well, Rogerson is abusive like hell towards Caitlin (main girl). Scary, really. I still think he's somehow, somewhat hot. Twisted, huh? (:

Let me give you a brief (or not so brief) synopsis of the story;

Caitlin's sister, Cassandra (Cass for short) runs away from home to be with her boyfriend, Adam. Caitlin falls for Rogerson, a guy with a history? I do not really know where I am getting at, so I should prolly stop here before it gets out of hand. Or maybe I will copy paste the synopsis from the book? All right, the synopsis from the book does not really help. I think I will just give up on that! (:

2008-11-03T18:46:00.008+08:00

I am so FREAKIN' excited that I am getting so impatient & fidgety. I want the Twilight movie to be showing in cinemas NOW! Is that so much to ask? Goodness! (:

The Twilight soundtrack is pretty good, I think. Paramore - Decode is awesome! ;D

2008-10-29T20:14:00.006+08:00

All right, I got over the waking up early in the morning thing. I think it's better, cause I get loads of time to do endless stuffs. (:

I watched High School Musical 3: Senior Year yesterday with my sisters & Y at Orchard Road. I must say, the movie/ musical rock shit! I'm beginning to like HSM a lot, right now. I know! I was a cynic at first. Especially since its first instalment. I think that HSM 3 is so much better compared to the previous two. The previous two (HSM & HSM 2) were cheesy & corny. The cheesy & corny part is somehow still present in HSM 3, but not so much. Dad sent us there. I think Dad made a wrong choice because we were supposed to go to West Mall to watch the movie, but Dad was like, "There's too many rowdy crowds there." So, we ended up going to Orchard Road. The crowd in the cinema was horrendous. A group of people were making so much noise - talking loudly, shouting, etc. Like WTH! Anyway, after the movie we went to Borders. OMGosh! I so want to buy so many things at Borders, right now! Oh well, I'll get over it. (:

Economics Paper 1 today was kinda hard. I mean, I was able to do it, but it was hard. Hopefully, I'll still get my A1 or A2 in this subject. I am so scared I would not be able to make it to Sec 5, you know? It's scary to let so many people down. From my parents, grandfather, cousins, aunts, teachers, friends, the list goes on & on & on. Oh well. According to Y, our N' level results will be out on Dec 18 (tentative).

Goodness! That is when Twilight (the movie) is showing in the cinemas. I so love Edward Cullen, not Robert Pattinson. I know the movie would not be as good as the book, but I still want to catch it. (: (:

2008-10-21T22:06:00.010+08:00

I just realised that I may have been a little bit too confident in my fairing for Economics O' levels. Therefore, I apologise. I don't want to feel too over- confident for my O's. Especially my O's. Damn!

I so dislike Dad right now! So, positively pissed with him! Goodness. The man asked me to wake up at 6.00 am on an effing daily basis! Screw this, man! I AM STILL PISSED! As effing pissed as I will ever be, for now!

Had loads of fun yesterday. I was so happy that Economics paper 2 (essay) was over that I made plans there & then with Y.

I have got to go. Dad will be entering this room any moment, now. (:

2008-10-20T12:06:00.011+08:00

OMGosh! ELATION, EXULTANT, ECSTATIC! I think I may be able to reach my aim for Economics O' levels. (: My aim is an A2 or A1! For once, I'm confident. Or maybe it's just relief that I was able to answer all of the questions. Well, this is only paper 2, so I still have to depend on paper 1 too. Oh well. Let's not get too confident, now.

I think I'm stuck on ABBA - Dancing Queen. (: It's so catchy & cool (all right, I'm a sucker for old songs). I watched Mamma Mia! (obviously). It's all because of that movie. I don't really like it (the movie), but I like the songs. They're so catchy. The song is so 70's? According to my parents, it is. (:

Dancing Queen - ABBA

2008-10-13T20:33:00.005+08:00

I think I am fickle- minded. Oh well, I was supposed to study for my Economics O' level, but I ended up getting bored & slept. What was supposed to be a short nap turned into a long nap? Oh well, I am not sure. What I am sure is that I am going to have to study like there is no tomorrow (for the coming days). Which means, no going out. Oh no! My exam is the week after, 20 Oct 2008. That's for paper 2. Paper 1 is on the 29 Oct 2008. It is like so irritating they, making us study for 2 days. Oh well. I'm aiming for at last an A2 or A1. It is like aiming for the sky. Currently, I'm only at B4, which stinks! If I aim for an A2, I know I would only a few marks away from A1, hence I think I will aim for A1. Rock on!

The weekend was pretty humdrum. I was actually going to catch up on my sleep, by well, sleeping on time & waking up at a acceptable hour. Turns out, the plan was scratched. (: Am currently sleepy. Lack of sleep, it is showing on my face. Eye- bags! Honestly, it is so repulsive. Oh well, I have got to do something about it.

2008-10-10T20:22:00.010+08:00

My friends came for visiting today. They were late, nothing surprising, though. (: I'm actually scared for my N' level results to come out. Oh well. Anyho, they (my friends) want me to follow them go house visiting with them the week after on Saturday. I told them that I'd think about it. I asked them, "Why not on Friday?", cause Dad has the weekend off. Hence I cannot go visiting with them on Saturday.

Hold on.. I need to tweak my playlist. All right, now I have 2 songs for this blog. (:

I am usually opposed to inserting songs on my blog or friendster (but who cares?).

We The KINGS is my all- time favourite band, right now! (:
ROCK ON, man!

2008-10-09T12:23:00.005+08:00

Oh, man! Dad didn't allow me to go. I'm bummed, but not that bummed. So maybe I'll be going to the library. Borrow books, kill time. I lost the USB wire. I was going to upload pics. Too bad. I'm going to strangle whoever lost it. Damn whoever lost it. I'm downright pissed, all right? I've cooled down, though. (: Today is Thursday, which means, a day before the weekends! I mean, it shouldn't make much difference to me because it'll the weekends for me for 3 whole months. That reminds me, I've got to enquire about something. I'm forgetting too many important stuffs already. Oh no! Hopefully, this is not a sign of ageing. (:

Calling.. good- bye! (:

2008-10-08T23:20:00.006+08:00

I didn't even ask Dad, okay? I'm such a freakin' chicken, yeah? Well, obviously you all would agree with me. I already have a freakin' plan in place. Go with A & T. Return home with A & T too. Damnit. I so loathe myself right now for being such a bloody chicken. Okay, maybe I don't loathe myself. I sometimes think I'm narcissistic. Currently prone to exaggeration, all right? (:

2008-10-08T20:53:00.004+08:00

I'm too chicken right now. I have to ask Dad permission to go out tomorrow. I'm chickening out. Darnit, no? S says this is not chickening out. S says I'm being an ant. Huh? I think I get it, though there's a loophole. I feel too free. I feel restless. The young & the restless, I guess. (:

rain, rain, go away.

2008-10-08T16:51:00.011+08:00

Under my umbrella (ella, ella, eh, eh)

p.s: cause its a rainy day, okay? (:

2008-10-08T16:36:00.008+08:00

I just realised, I didn't really tell you guys that I have cut my hair short. I actually cut it on the Hari Raya week. I cut it short. I mean, I wanted a change. I get bored with my hair, easily. Which is sad, cause I liked my previous hairstyle. Hari Raya does not feel like Hari Raya, because of the exam mode. I mean, you are enjoying yourself, but that little voice keeps nagging at you, "EXAM! EXAM! EXAM!" That spoils your mood instantly. Oh well.

Anyway, I went to eat lunch with F at triple 8's KFC. Had a blast. (: Now, I'm back home & bored. I mean, I've got months of freedom to look forward to. My guess it's a good thing? I think I'm going to take up a language class, see how it goes. Especially since I'm not working while the rest of the N' level students are working. Oh well. Most of my classmates are at the chalet. I think I'm going. Almost everyone wants me to go. Take pictures, etc. Since this may be the last year we all see each other. Oh well. F & I had an unlucky day, mostly because it rained heavily. I mean, thunderstorm rain. Torrential rain. I'm not exaggerating. We ended up waiting for some kind soul to help us cross the road so that we could take the bus. We did eventually get to the bus stop. Only, we didn't board the bus. We waited for F's friend to bring a brellie (umbrella) to us. We walked home, with the brellie. Even though the rain immediately stopped when the brellie was with us. Darnit, no?

2008-10-05T17:37:00.003+08:00

I've gone French. At least in my blog address. (:

2008-10-05T16:35:00.005+08:00

I know! I'm so sorry. It's been too long since my last post. 3 weeks at least. & now it's October. Time flies, no? Soon, it'll be Christmas, then New Year. I'll turn a year older soon. Shikes! I'm turning older. 30 years already sound so old to me. (: Anyway, I've been busy with (as usual), school. I've sat for all my N' levels paper except for one, Principles Of Accounts (POA). It's going to end very, very soon. POA's on Tuesday. Hopefully I'll go to Secondary 5. I'm actually scared if I end up in ITE. Honestly!

Hari Raya was pleasant. Actually it'll be fun if not for the exam mood. I mean, we only had a day off. My sisters had exams the day after Raya. How depressing! Everyone from everywhere came here. It was a blast. (: Everyone's going back to where they came from tomorrow. That's gotta suck. Actually it does suck, big time. Darn.

I've got to continue to study POA. Last paper, then F-R-E-E-D-O-M! BOO-YA! (:

My posts so far have been short. There isn't much to talk about. Maybe soon.. just maybe.

2008-09-18T18:05:00.012+08:00

Continuing from where I left off from the last post, I've been walking & walking & walking. Quite literally. I mean, on Saturday, I shopped till I dropped (literally!). I mean, I was getting clothes (obviously!). Mum, sisters & I went to Vivo City. Actually, Mum & I planned to go to Ikea to buy a carpet for the room, but Dad called Mum & told her to bring us out for shopping. Was I delighted! I mean, I wanted to got shopping, sans the sisters (like it'll happen anytime soon). So, we spent the whole day at Vivo, from shop to shop. It was fun & tiring. I was fasting, okay?

All right, enough about the weekend. I'm sick. Very sick, but I'm trying to not miss any days for my fasting. So, I've been very sick & always in school, darnit. I didn't want to go to school, but Mum wouldn't hear of it. I ended up in school this week, despite me being sick & having a freakin' fever. Why complain?

One of my granduncles passed away the day before. My paternal grandfather's brother. Well, I think I got that right. Oh well. I mean, he is after all, old. So, God bless his soul. Such a kind soul, really. The death was not caused by any sickness, just passed away of old age (that's what everyone is telling me).

I'm going to make a bargain or a compromise (at least) to my parents. I want them to allow me to go to our class chalet - 2 Compassion 2006. I mean, I have never slept over at a chalet before, so I would not mind if they would not allow me to sleep over. Just let me go there, have fun. I mean, it is after all (or maybe) the last year we are going to see each other. So, please let me go! (: I'll beg if I have to (though it'll be the most desperate option).

Oh, can I please not go to school tomorrow? Pretty please, with sugar on top? ;D

2008-09-15T16:36:00.006+08:00

The weekend was a blast! To say the least. I know I haven't been updating this blog in a while. It's just that school is taking up loads of my time. Not forgetting, my N' levels! Oh, it's going to end.. eventually. I keep telling myself that it'll end, just so I can do the papers properly. I mean, what if I don't get to go to Sec 5? OMGosh! I'm doomed. Anyway, Dad's giving me an incentive. If I pass my N' levels, he going to get me an iPhone. Hopefully, though. I mean, by the time the results come out, it'll be the next year. This is not fair. Especially since he kinda promised me that he'll get it for me soon. Gosh!

I've got to shut down the computer cause I updated the iTunes. So till I log in/ blog again, TAA- TAA! (:

2008-09-10T19:51:00.009+08:00

Edward Cullen is hot. (: I mean, the Edward in the book. I do not really like the Edward in the movie. Oh well. I think I have an obsession for him. (: Which is dumb, because he is after all, a fictional character. Still.. I can't help but dream. (: Loads of people in my class are reading the book. Too bad. I bought all four of the books in record time. It all started last two weeks.

Mirs, Mum & I went to Causeway Point to buy stuffs. Then we headed to POPULAR bookstore because I had to buy my stationery. My sister, the ever extra one, wanted to buy a book. I was fairly pissed, because well I thought she & I made a pact to buy the second part of the sequel of Eragon. Did she buy it? Nope she didn't. Instead, she bought some ridiculous book where someone is holding an apple. The book is Twilight, Stephenie Meyer. I was freakin' pissed. So much for a pact.

So she read it that night. I was still frustrated with her. She kept on reading & reading & reading. I ignore the book until I finished my papers for that week, the September hols. It was only then that I absolutely fell in love with the book. I actually thought it was still dumb. It was after the first few pages did the book really caught my attention. I've loved it ever since. The next day, a Friday, after I finished reading Twilight, I was desperate for more. So, I waited patiently for Saturday to come.

Saturday came & I more or less made another pact. This time, with Auds. She was another sister who couldn't keep to her pact. This angered me a lot. Especially since this is the second time that a promise has been broken. Auds wanted to buy Breaking Dawn. I needed the New Moon & Eclipse. I knew Mum wouldn't allow us to buy all 3 that's why I had to get Auds to buy Eclipse. We made a fuss about it, as usual. Eventually, Mum agreed to buy all 3!

OMGawd! This is the first time my sisters & I have a complete set of the sequel. I mean, Harry Potter didn't even come close to being completed. Nor will it be in the future. (: Edward Cullen is heaven.

I don't like the Bella in the movie, though I like the Bella in the book. Too bad. Twilight is coming out duing Christmas, Dec 25. Oh hell, that's darnit long. (:

Gold, baby!

2008-08-29T20:46:00.009+08:00

Oh, Oh, Oh! I finally, finally, finally, FINALLY got a medal! I mean, the first in my secondary school life & I am already in secondary 4. UN-FREAKIN'-BELIEVABLE! (: It's exciting, really. I got, GOLD! I've never really gotten a gold in my entire life, so it is exciting. Teacher's day celebration yesterday was FAN-UBER-TAS-TIC! (: I'm currently listening to Westlife. Basically, reminiscing. N' levels are here. On Tuesday is the start of N' levels. Malay Paper 1 & 2.

"Just a smile and the rain is gone
Can hardly believe it (yeah)
There's an angel standing next to me
Reaching for my heart

Just a smile and there's no way back
Can hardly believe it (yeah)
But there's an angel calling me
Reaching for my heart

Holdin I'll be ok now
This time it's real

I lay my love on you
It's all I wanna do
Everytime I breathe I feel brand new
You open up my heart
Show me all your love, and walk right through
As I lay my love on you

I was lost in a lonely place
Could hardly believe it (yeah)
Holding onto yesterdays
Far, far too long

I believe its ok cause this time it's real

I lay my love on you
It's all I wanna do
Everytime I breathe I feel brand new
You open up my heart
Show me all your love, and walk right through(oh yeah)
As I lay my love on you

I never knew that love could feel so good

Like a once in a lifetime
You change my world

I lay my love on you
You make me feel brand new
Show me all love, and walk right through(oh yeah)
As I lay my love on you

I lay my love on you
It's all I wanna do
Everytime I breathe I feel brand new
You open up my heart
Show me all your love, and walk right through
As I lay my love on you

I lay my love on you
You make me feel brand new
You open up my heart
Show me all your love, and walk right through
As I lay my love on you
As I lay my love on you"

Westlife - I Lay My Love On You (:

my all-time favourite song.

2008-08-22T22:16:00.009+08:00

(: I'm so sleepy. I've got tons of homework to do. My N' levels is in 10 days & counting. Oh, yeah, Uncle isn't even going to America. He's currently in (of all places), India! Oh, the joy! (: It's so shocking because Uncle has never really been to India. Maybe Grandfather is lying. Oh well, I don't really know, now do I? I'm so annoyed that I had to come home kinda later than usual today because of Economics. I know that my Economics Prelims 2 is coming, but it's just that I really dislike it when classes start an hour and a half after school ends. It's too long. I was actually lost as to what to do because I could not go to the library, which is under construction. Oh well. So, I ended up spending the time with D. I like her because she's really straightforward in a nice way. She is after all, the President of the Student Council (SC). I'm aware that she will get far in life since she is a determined person. Anyway, I've done enough posting about someone else.

This week has been pretty mundane, to say the least. We went through all our Prelims paper. I passed all except, (obviously!) Math. Maybe I posted it before. Oh well. I need to pass my Math seeing that it is related to practically everything. Like everyplace you see/ look, numbers are surrounding your space. From the time, to the date, etc. So, I cannot really escape from Math, therefore, it is essential for me to ace it. Really ace it. (: Oh well, all the best in that as I honestly suck in Math. This doesn't mean I won't try my best to pass it. I'm really not one to give up so easily. So, I will give it my all. Oh, the determination!

My parents are out, having dinner (probably). I think I'm going furniture shopping tomorrow. All the old furniture have finally moved out. A distant relative of mine took it. At least it's not all gone. I was actually sad that I did not get a chance to bid farewell to the furniture that have been there since I was born. It was kind of hard for me. It's just furniture, but it's something I've relied on for so long for the comfort it gives. Sounds so twisted! Mirs was also sad that she did not get to bid farewell. I'm not the only one, okay!

It's way past my bedtime. I should be going off, but I do not think I would. It's Friday for crying out loud! Maybe I should wake up early tomorrow so that I would be able to finish all the homework on Saturday, then study on Sunday instead of cramping it all on Sunday. What a fabulous idea! (:

p.s: The highlighted phrases are supposed to be sarcastic. (:

2008-08-20T20:28:00.006+08:00

Ohmy, Ohmy, Ohmy! I so badly want the iPhone. I'm not sure when I'm getting one, hopefully soon. Oh well. I'll be able to make it to Secondary Five with the results & grades that I'm getting. That's a plus. Still, I'm disappointed in my results because I barely passed my Chemistry paper. That reminds me, I've got to check my school's website. Hold a moment, yeah?

Ah, I checked it already. Well, I basically did badly for my Prelims exams, though there's an improvement in my POA & Combined Sciences. (: I just need to pass my freaking Math. Just give me a B3- C5 & I'll be satisfied, for now. Going to be short because I really want to study.

Toodles & Take care! (:

2008-08-16T15:19:00.011+08:00

Earle Swensens is awesome! (: Yeah, I had a blast there. It was my first time there, like the rest of my family. We went with my Uncle & Aunt. Apparently, it's the higher end of Swensens. Anyway, I ate Lobster with Black Pepper Pasta. Oh, man, was it delicious. (: Since my meal was entitled to a Salad Buffet, I went to eat salad. I felt very healthy. My food took a while, so I munched on salad.

By the end of my meal, I was stuffed like an elephant. (: The food was uber fantastic. After our meal, 10.30 pm, we walked around. Gosh! was the place humongous. It was actually boring because most of the shops were closed. With no shops opened, the whole family went back to my Uncle's place. Might as well, I was all getting sleepy. After each meal, I'm bound to head to bed. Only I didn't when we got to my Uncle's place. My sisters & I watched the Tennis match between Spain & Serbia. Obviously between Rafael Nadal & Novak Djokovic.

I so wanted Djokovic to win. I mean, let him win! Nadal has won too many tournaments already. Oh well. (: At least he'll be playing against James something for the Bronze medal. Still.. so depressing.

Gosh! I'm so so so absolutely tired today. Thank God there isn't any major plans. (: Let my body system recharge itself. I'm still full because of last night. Gosh! Help me! (:

2008-08-15T11:01:00.008+08:00

The morning seemed to drag.. Last night I couldn't sleep because of my maid. She was talking on the phone like no one's business. Her irritating handphone kept ringing the whole night. If that wasn't bad enough, the horrendous clock started ringing. And that was at 4 am! The only reason I was sleeping with her is because I'm sick. I should actually blame this on Mum, for ordering me to sleep with her, despite my protests. Oh well.. I've been awake since 10 am, I have yet to take a bath (you could prolly smell me from wherever you are:)).

I surprisingly (or not surprisingly) had no unusual dreams. Maybe I'll take a bath after posting this. (:
Meanwhile, I have yet to recover. Slowly, but surely. My throat hurts. Drinking water & sucking on Strepsils isn't going to help much. Oh well, better to listen to Mum's instructions.

Anyway, I've been trying to come up with a new blog name. www.nutsdarling.blogspot.com appears to be.. dumb, for me. (: After coming up with many names, I'll eventually stick to this one. Oh well, might as well be, cause I've run out of ideas. (:

I should be meeting my mate around 2 or 3 pm. That leaves me with loads of time to myself, which is a good thing.
OMGosh! I've been asked if I would want to watch Love Guru. Sorry F, but I disgust movies like that. Too much of a slap- stick.
Oh & I dislike Mike Myers. Jessica Alba should know better than to act in such a movie. Plus it's kinda controversial. It's rated NC16 because of Sexual Humour. Eeeewwww. Movie critics rate it below 2/5. Why bother? The critics probably have much more experience that we do in such movies & even they think this movie stinks. Oh well. No pun intended, though.

"Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?"

Daughtry - What About Now? (:

I so love this song, because it's so touching. (:

2008-08-14T21:45:00.008+08:00

I am going to meet one of my mates, F tomorrow. It's been a while since I last saw her, last year. Both of us have always wanted to meet each other, but our schedules make it impossible to do so. Now, we finally have the chance to meet each other. This should be exciting. (: With any luck, Starbucks wouldn't be full. Evidently, that is where our get- together would be held.

There is an influx of posts because I've got loads of time to spare. Since there's no school until Monday. It makes me deliriously euphoric to think so. My days of toiling are halted, for now. It's the best time to mentally prepare myself for the N' levels that is ahead of me. Let me think of it as another obstacle that I can obviously overcome, but how well would I actually overcome it? Would it be good enough for me to go to secondary five?

I know this is not the time for me to start questioning myself. I cannot help it. Oh well. (:
I'm going off, to watch the Basketball match, Argentina vs. Croatia. (:
I shall not choose sides, because I don't know the strengths of the teams.

p.s: It's finally Friday (Movie Marathon!).

2008-08-14T20:02:00.014+08:00

All right. I've just realised that my posts are getting shorter & shorter. Oh well..

I'm recovering from my bout of fever, which is a good thing. Fever reminds me of the colour yellow. My throat still hurts, though. I had the best sleep & the weirdest dream last night. Which I have yet to ponder over. I did however, manage to conclude that it's uber farcical. Might as well let it be, because it'll only cause me to lose many sleepless night ruminating on the peculiar dream.

I woke up fully satisfied, although I wouldn't mind a few more hours of sleep. I woke up at an unearthly hour, 12.30 pm. If it wasn't for my maid, I'd sleep through until God! knows what time. (: I procrastinated & finally took a bath at 1.30 pm. Can't help it.

I am currently listening to Big R Radio ^ The Mix, it's an internet radio station (for those living under the nutshell). The song that is being played is Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love. I changed my radio station to Big R Radio ^ The Hawk. Song playing is Alicia Keys - No One. (:

No one's really online. It's getting boring, except for the fact that the songs being played are my favourites. It's also fun listening to new songs. This'll help me expand my musical tastes, making me more well- rounded.

Actually, I'm just crapping everything out so that this post would be long. I like long posts. The longer, the more fun (in my opinion).

"Loosen up my buttons, darling" Sounds so wickedly naughty. (;
That's actually the whole purpose.

2008-08-13T12:23:00.010+08:00

It's finally over! Prelims, that is. Though the N' levels are still etched at the back of my mind. Oh well, at least I can finally recover properly from my fever. That's actually a nice thought. I've got no school from today until next week. Bloody fantastic, no? My voice (if you could hear) sounds like Mickey Mouse. Or maybe Bugs Bunny. (: Sick, right? Today's Math Paper 2 was OMGosh! doable. I was actually happy that I could do most of it, except for the ridiculous equations.

Yesterday's POA Paper 1 was fairly simple & hard. I know I didn't study it properly because I was so sick. Lame excuse, I know! Though it seemed inevitable that I would fall sick. It's always been like that. Maybe I was subconsciously stressing my mind out. Might as well get it over & done with. Hopefully I don't have any major sickness during my N' levels or O' levels. Yes, I'm such a special student that I get to do both N' & O' levels at the same time. If only I was more hardworking, I'd get to skip N' levels altogether. No worries, though. I'm fine with this whole thing.

L & me are getting amusingly closer. Which is weird, by all accounts. I don't mind though, not that much. Anyway, I want to go out with E & K during this short 'break', but I highly doubt that I'd be allowed to. Oh well, they're not really my close friends. If I do eventually go out, I'd mentally prepare myself of the many misfortunes that may befall upon me. Sounds so literature- ish.

I feel so much more calm than I was last week. (: I want to study like hell for my N' levels, but the devil in me doesn't really respond well to me studying. Who am I to complain? It's the devil we're talking about.

I'm currently reading Christopher Paolini's Eragon. You should know, that there are many scenes cut out from the movie. For example; Eragon's uncle Garrow, isn't killed by the Ra' Zacs as shown in the movie. Another example; It took a while for Eragon to find a suitable name for the it (dragon), eventually settling on the name Saphira. Those are among the many things that have been taken out to fit the movie. Oh well, I cannot really say anything because I'm no director/producer.

p.s: Now, I don't really need to conspire to anything. (:

2008-08-11T11:22:00.006+08:00

I woke up early today. Too early for my liking, 9.00 am. Gosh! You cannot believe this, I think I'm going to be sick. I cannot afford that to happen right now, not when I've still got to sit for 2 papers tomorrow. POA Paper 1 is tomorrow. Math Paper 2 in on Wednesday. I know, no time to fall sick. Well, except for Thursday & Friday. Oh, the conspiracy. (:

This is becoming so random. Life is so random. Oh well, might as well be or I'll die of routines.
My eyes are tiny. I could hardly see what I'm typing. I couldn't sleep, hence the early rise. (: Now, my head's a little dizzy/ giddy.

Y & me are planning to watch a movie, The Mummy: Tomb of The Dragon Emperor. Hopefully, I got it right. Oh well, I want to watch it, it's just that I don't think I would be allowed to go. It's worth a shot, I guess. Coming from the fact that I should study right now so that I'll be ready for tomorrow's paper & be allowed to go.

I'm logging off, now! (:

dumb blonde!

2008-08-11T00:13:00.010+08:00

OMGosh! I didn't realise that I could actually do anything else to this post. Other than type maniacally on it. I could do this, "Hello, you!" add colour! Oh, the revelation! (:

Now, you all know how outdated & dumb I am! Ohmy, I could even enlarge it. I mean, I knew the normal computers were able to do it, but the iMac? Who'd knew it was just hidden from me. This goes to show that I have yet to explore the iMac fully. (: It's just an excuse, okay.

Now, let's check this shit out ! & don't expect me to always add colour/ enlarge or anything to the usual posts, okay?

2008-08-10T23:35:00.008+08:00

This is why I'm up this late on a Sunday.
- there's no school tomorrow.
- I think I'll watch the Olympics.
- still chatting to a few people. (conversations never seem to die.)
- curiosity. (see who's online.)
- listening to my iTunes.

Someone from my past life came online. Oh, how I missed him. He's not even from here. He's from across the world. A full 24 hour plane ride from here or maybe more than that. Go figure! Anyway, I miss him. Shan't reveal any more details about that. All I can say is his initial is D. (: I'll call him D from now onwards. Which I have been doing to all my mates (initials, that is).

The time is now 12.00 am. Hello Monday! The only reason the blog has not been posted since 11.30 something is because I'm chatting with everyone else. I'm currently Aunt Agony to someone. So, if you want me as your Aunt Agony, please do leave a comment. (: Gosh! You can either take it as a joke (a rather lame one, that is) or you can take it seriously (which is dumb, by all accounts). I'll go off now, I think.
I can barely see what I've typed. (:
POA Paper 1 on Tuesday.

I'll be seeing D online tomorrow, webcam (hopefully!).

2008-08-09T15:44:00.007+08:00

I know! I'm blogging on a Saturday. (:

Last night's Olympic Beijing 2008 Opening Ceremony was kick ass! (: It was uber fantastic. I mean, OMGosh! it was beyond what I actually expected. I think it's beyond words. I wanna watch it again. I wish I was actually there to really experience the atmosphere. I mean, it comes once every four years, so in my lifetime, I wanna experience at least 5 Olympic opening ceremony. (: That was random.

Anyway, Connect S'pore was such a waste of time. I was actually going to give it a chance, but the other school was such a pain. In the end, my area didn't even recite the pledge or anything. The chain was broken because the other school kept on moving back & forth. Shit, right? Oh well, could've just went home & slept. The sacrifices that students make.

Yesterday's Geography Paper was challenging. It was! I'm already bummed because of it. I came into the exam venue 10 minutes late. The reason, I didn't wear school socks. Then the vice- principal came & lectured those who didn't wear school socks. Actually, quite a number of my mates didn't. Oh well. I couldn't really be bothered, because it was kinda dumb. You've probably heard the lecture a million times, in different versions. (:

2008-08-07T19:44:00.006+08:00

OMGosh! BOO-YA! My team, won the Netball Inter- Class Competition. In view of the coming Olympic Beijing 2008, my school dedicated this week to sports. I guess it's to encourage us or something. Maybe fair-play, etc. What do I know? The game started off quite badly, though. Too many mishaps. Honestly. Oh well.

Firstly, one of the team- members kinda fell when a ball hit her face. So, she felt so giddy. Stopped the game for a while so that we could get her off the court.
Second mishap, it rained! Yes, rained/ drizzled. No big different, now is there? Oh well.
Third mishap, someone sprained her ankle. That someone was from my team! Panic, no? Might as well.

It ended an hour earlier than it was supposed to. (:
Oh & the best part is, tomorrow's my Geography Paper! (: Then that reminds me, today's Chemistry Paper was so freakishly hard! Physics Paper was so much more easier to do! And I revised for Chemistry more than Physics, okay. Like whatthehell, right?

Tomorrow is the eve of the National Day. Tomorrow is also the start of the Olympics Beijing 2008. Cool or what? Anyway, since it's the eve of National Day, my school will be participating in the Connect Singapore. Apparently, it's the first of its kind in history. So that means, we'll be part of an important milestone or something. Oh well.

Let me tell you a little something about Connect Singapore. There'll be many schools participating in this. You're supposed to hold hands to the person beside you. Then, we'll be reciting the pledge. If I'm not wrong, sing the National Anthem too. (:
The Guest-Of-Honour is... (drum roll, please) our very own President, Mr Nathan! (:

All right, back to studying. (: All the best, yeah.

2008-08-03T20:42:00.007+08:00

Oh Prelims have finally started. Maybe I blogged it on Friday. Still, it does no wrong to blog it again. I'm multi- tasking. Blogging, chatting & singing along to Mika's Big Girl (You Are Beautiful)

This is going to be a short one cause I can't multi- task for a long time. I went to Geylang on yesterday to buy my Baju Kurong. Kinda nice, but I prefer the white one with a different design. I didn't get to buy it because it was dirty. It had spots on it. Too bad, because I so fell in love with it. Tomorrow's paper is Social Studies & Mathematics Paper 1. You should also know, the quality of my Social Studies is getting worse. Which is sad, because I love the subject loads. Oh well, I hope I do this well this time around.

Dad's coming back on Tuesday! That's something to be happy about. Mum feels better already.

Keep your fingers crossed! (:

2008-08-01T20:13:00.004+08:00

Mum's sick. Really sick. The usual fever sick. So, I guess it's not all that bad.

Yesterday's English Prelim Paper 1 & 2 was hard. Actually, Paper 1 was hard. Paper 2 was not as hard, but hard. I kept in mind what my English teacher told me about my mistakes. Now, I'm scared that I 'lifted' the answers a lot. Darn! Just when I thought I'd really pass this one with flying colours. Paper 1 is over 60. I plan to get at least more than 49 marks. (: Paper 2 is over 80. I plan to get a lot more than what I got for MYE. Honestly! (:
Hopefully, I'll be able to achieve that.

I miss Dad. He's away. Wonder how he's doing. Hopefully he's fine. Yesterday he called, but I didn't get to talk to him because he was in a rush. Only Grandfather & Uncle did. Oh well..

I've still got loads more papers to finish before the Prelims is over. A lot more. Gosh! It sounds so depressing.

Well, tonight's movie pick is (drum roll, please) AKEELAH & THE BEE! (: Oh, do I so love this movie. It's so funny. (: Ah well.. I'm watching it NOW! Good- bye.

2008-07-25T22:19:00.009+08:00

Movie marathon! (: Yes, I like to watch movies on Friday nights at home! I think that's an uber fantastic way to usher in my weekend! (: Oh, last week's movie was Lizzie McGuire: The Movie. Yes, it's old, but I like it. I'm a sentimentalist. Tonight's movies are; The Golden Compass & Coach Carter. The latter, I have yet to watch it tonight. It's on the list, though. I'm going to watch Coach Carter after I'm done updating this blog of mine. (: I've actually watched it in school before, it's so nice & so darn touching. So, I'm watching it again. Just so you know, I dislike watching any movies more than trice. I know I'm peculiar. That's the way I like it. (:

Off to watch Coach Carter, yeah! (:
Happy weekend !

2008-07-25T13:49:00.005+08:00

Today is Nanny's two- year anniversary. Well, it's been two years since Nan's passed away. I still feel sad, whenever I think about her. I think Granddad misses her dearly. Actually, everyone I know really misses her dearly. I miss her. Life has to go on, though. Granddad's still mourning over his loss. Obviously, they've been together for more six decades. That's longer than any grandparents' marriage that I know. Come on!

Love at first sight, for them. If you'd hear how Granddad reminisces about their marriage & how they knew each other, it was a marvel itself. It's amazing how they could've found love at such a young age. Now, you can hardly find people who experiences love at first sight & still love each other for more than five decades. Now, marrying at a young age is so taboo. Even my parents have yet to reach the three decade mark. Oh well. I miss Nan. (:

POA class test was confusingly hard. Honestly. You'd think that it's just calculation & a little bit of math, but it isn't. It's English + Math + Theory rolled into one. Well, hopefully I'll pass. I'm going to ace every subject that I'm taking this year, except for Math, maybe. Mark my words, people! (: Happy weekend, finally!

2008-07-21T20:19:00.002+08:00

This is going to be a quickie because, my homework is finally piling up. Oh man! Well, I've finally seen S' friendster profile. (:
Can't say much, so I'll say nothing regarding that. My Math teacher finally blew her top at us. I think, it's better that we self- study because the class seems so much quieter that way. Oh well.. My English class test, paper 2 is tomorrow!

Hopefully, it's raining tomorrow. Cause I don't want to do PE. I've been freezing in school. Honestly. I thought that my fingers were going to drop off anytime soon. (: Wouldn't it be cool to see that happen? I mean, except for the fact that you cannot hold/ grab things properly & that it'll hurt once your body temperature is back to normal. Okay, this sounds twisted. Sounds so sadistic too. So, I shall stop & start doing my homework. (:

God bless me. Did I tell you, I passed my Economics Paper! (: Let's hope I pass this English class test too. Oh, it's better & easier for me to say that I hope that I'll pass all my papers with FLYING COLOURS! (:

2008-07-18T23:19:00.004+08:00

Notice you, noticing me! (: That girl is so DANGEROUS! Start laughing now. Cause the song is pretty ridiculous. I don't really know why I bother listening to it. Well, this is weird because I don't really like to listen to Hip-Hop/Rap. Oh well. It's better compared to listening to whatchamacallit?... Vanessa Hudgens. Really! Ok, let's not get too deep in this topic because it's to each it's own.

OMGosh! There is no 'Whose Line Is It Anyway' tonight. How unbelievable! It's currently replaced by back-to-back 'House' episodes. Don't get me wrong, I like 'House'. It's just that when it overlaps one of my all time favourite TV shows, then would I get irate. (:

2008-07-18T21:47:00.004+08:00

Heyho! (: All right, my Malay Oral was as bad as an unlucky day. Honestly! I freaked out & cried! I mean, I didn't cry in front of the oral examiners. Just in front of my mates. I mean, they (my Malay mates) were all waiting for each other. Anyway, it was fast because there was only 6 of us taking Malay in the whole level. Still. So I was the second- last person. Started freakin' out because I didn't know the word boros. I now forgot what the meaning was. Yeah, I crapped all the way. OMGosh! I have never been so despondent just cause of Oral. Urghhh! Someone do something to make me feel better! Our oral was held at DSS. Go figure. It was easy to get there because a few of them knew how to get there. I think the school is artistic. We were greeted by much of the students' artwork. Some very impressive. Others kinda normal. Who's to say right? Art is personal.

I'm all right now. (: God! I don't even think I'll get a Distinction for that. Maybe just a Merit. I cried once I saw a familiar face outside of the school. Oh, I was filled with much panic & stress. I broke down. HAH! (: Now, it's kinda weird that I cried. Though I still feel what I felt just now. (: Well, it's over and done with. Nothing much I can do about it. It'll take a while for me to mentally recover. Still, there's the weekend to look forward too! (:

2008-07-16T18:31:00.007+08:00

My weekend came & went in a snap! Really. Nothing much happened. I mean, I didn't really want anything to happen because firstly, I wasn't feeling that well to begin with. Secondly, my mind was de-stressing itself. It's all because of English Oral. Believe me when I say that oral has a lot more impact on your mind than most of the school's activities. Honestly. So much has changed within this week. Okay, so indirectly it's only the second day of the school week. Sorry to burst your bubble, my school had an extended weekend. (: Still, I'm farther apart to my friends. I'm closer to people who not only used to be my friend, but also people whom I wouldn't even think that I'd be friends with. The irony of it all, really.

Tuesday was a last minute Photo-taking session. Honestly. We (the class) wanted to wait until our co-form teacher gets back from his re- service, but the hired company was insistent that we take our class photo on that day itself. I was damn right pissed. When it came to group photos, we weren't even allowed to choose who we wanted to take pictures with. It was that sick. Oh well. Still, it wasn't complete w/o HIM (co-form).

Tomorrow, tomorrow, I love you tomorrow.. The school will be extending our curriculum time just because we're having a movie screening. How incompetent! This year is crap compared to last, where we went to cinemas in Orchard to actually watch the movies. I wonder what movie they'll be showing this year that cannot be watched outside. Oh the rage.

I've got much homework to do. It's really beginning to pile up. Oh well, I'll do it all tonight, then. OMGosh! Malay Oral is coming! The day after tomorrow. OMGosh! I guess, it's doomsday. Just like the movie, 'Day after tomorrow' or something like that. (: Shucks. I don't really know how to mentally prepare myself. OMGosh. I'm getting complacent. Honestly, it's really bad. I drives me crazy that I'm behaving like this. I failed my SS class test, for the first time since Secondary three. It's that bad. Really bad. Worse than bad. It's beyond me. The funniest thing is, I'm the one controlling it. Oh, the pressure. I should probably stop now. Seeing that I've got much homework to be completed by tonight. Especially SS & POA & lemme see.. Math! (:

The Bride Stripped Bare, is a damn hot book. Should read it. (: